4 posts tagged “matt lakey”

Friday!
     FISH went to the Coffee Beanery, then Putt-Putt. I made a fool out of myself, crying because of a friend that's struggling with bipolar disorder. I couldn't take it anymore. I hadn't told anyone, or if I had, I hadn't told them how serious it was. But it just overflowed and I couldn't be the strong one anymore.

    I have a very tender heart and when people around me hurt, I channel their pain. If you've ever heard the song "Scars" by Papa Roach, that's exactly how I feel sometimes. Especially the times that I've tried to be there for people that didn't want me to be there for them for whatever reason.
    "You're drowning in the water and I offered you my hand, I left my heart open but you didn't understand..." "And my weakness is that I care too much..."
    Anyway, it's funny how whenever a friend cries around me, I don't think any less of them and I'm like, "It's fine, you needed to do that." I am not much of a crier but the few times I've done that around other people I've felt humiliated.
    Otherwise, the night was fun. I got a neon green plastic samurai sword with tickets at Putt-Putt. ^_^ It's the little things...     I went to Fort Worth with Erica to take pictures at the butterfly exhibit they were having at the botanical gardens. They had over 10,000 butterflies there. Awesome, awesome stuff. Really humid, but awesome.
    Butterflies are pretty dang hard to photograph, but I did get a few nice shots. This one is my favorite.
A little girl was checking out a Blue Morpho. As they say on Cute Overload, C.O.X.C.U.! (Close-up)
Is that not the most beautiful shade of blue you've ever seen? I had to set my camera mode to "Sports" (action mode, takes a series of photographs in a matter of seconds) to capture this, because this butterfly doesn't flutter its wings a whole lot after landing.
    This one is an Atlas Moth, which is enormous. The wingspan must have been about a foot long.
     Laugh if you will, but if this monster came after me, I'd scream bloody murder. Just look closer at the body...
     The antennae are kinda cool - they look like feathers - and the colors may be kinda pretty, but still...bugs frighten me and if this thing were fluttering around the porch light, I would run away into the night, finally collapsing in an exhausted heap somewhere in Palo Pinto county, where I would fall into a greatly pained slumber, filled with nightmares concerning this monstrous moth. It is incredible, yet terrifying.
    We also took some time to have some fun with the statues outside. Laura-Rose called me and really needed someone to talk to, so Erica and I also took turns consoling her.
Sunday!
    Matt came to church with me, then we went to Billy and Josie's place, where Matt and Billy schooled me on Halo some more. I still suck, but not as much as I did.
    It's a small world.
    During lunchtime, I sat in the Student Center cafeteria, with my laptop. A girl asked if I'd mind her sitting at the same table so she could plug in her laptop as well. She said her name was Emily. We started talking as we each surfed the Web. Then eventually, Laura showed up.
    "I didn't know you two knew each other!"
    Turns out that Emily and Laura are in the same class. Emily even had some notes lying on the table that Laura had written for her.
    Anyway, I made a new friend and realized what a small world it was.

How old were you when you had your first "official" boyfriend or girlfriend? What was he/she like?

21! LOL. (Of course, it's just been in the past year or two that I've gotten over my outright fear of the male gender...)
I have mentioned Matt before, right? (Considering my first entry upon restarting my blog was, "The ninja is alive!"

    But in case I haven't or you've forgotten, this is Matt. He is the classic geek (computers, video games, obscure cultural references, etc.) and I find that to be absolutely freaking adorable. I like his Buddy Holly glasses and how he adjusts them whenever I compliment him on something. I like how his nose is just a tiny bit crooked because it got hit by a basketball years ago. I like how when he gets riled up about something he starts doing all these exaggerated hand motions. I like how he slugs down coffee all the time (it makes him smell pretty good, too...hugging him is like walking into a coffee shop...)
    But most of all, the guy has a very big heart. Even when we're playing Halo and he's killing me every ten seconds, I still know that on the inside he's a total sweetheart.
    I think I met Matt for the first time when I was having lunch in the college cafeteria with Zeke and Laura S. almost 2 years ago. Zeke and Matt were talking about video games. Big surprise!
    Now, he and I only said a few words to each other at that time, so I didn't know him well at all. But I have a tendency to be a very good judge of character and honestly, I knew something was different about the boy. He just seemed to be a very genuine, very nice guy. I remember thinking, "Wouldn't it be weird if I ended up dating him?" It was really strange, because while I am admittedly semi-emo, I don't look at every male as a potential boyfriend. I dismissed the thought as just being one of those random things that crosses your mind every now and then, like, "What if robots ruled Australia?" or "What if I'm the only real person on Earth and God is only a user playing a gigantic game of Sims?" or "What would be different if I were wearing a sombrero right now?" Okay, so not everyone has those kind of random thoughts, but I do, and it's a safe bet that Matthew does, too.
    Then I saw him once or twice before Thanksgiving of that year, when I had my 2nd annual "Family for a Day" hooha and Zeke brought him. We had to wait forever to get into Luby's, so the three of us had awhile to talk. Matt mentioned a video game called, "Secret of Mana," and my ears perked.
    "Did you mention, 'Secret of Mana'?"
    He had.
    OMGtehr0x0rz x infinity.
    One of my best friends as a child had a game called Secret of Mana for her SNES. I was never able to find the game anywhere else (this was pre-eBay, etc.) so I was pretty much obsessed with it whenever I went over to her house. My friend got mad at me a few times because I wouldn't stop playing it. When she got a PlayStation, her parents made her get rid of the Super Nintendo and all her games. I saved my allowance to buy it, but her parents wanted to be turds and sell it to GameStop instead.
    Anyway, I also found out that day that Matt had been homeschooled. So we had a few new things to talk about. As I sat there with my mom, Ms. Hagler, Zeke and Matt, the thought came to me again...he just seems like a really good guy.
    He began to come with Zeke to the FISHie nights, then coming even when Zeke didn't. Over the next year, I got to know him more and more and like him more and more. We were both pretty shy during the first one-on-one conversations we had with each other. Then we realized we were both weird and that we both liked that. In May, my grandmother died. For some reason, I thought about him a lot while I was in Florida that next week for the funeral. Not too long after I got back, I went to Panera Bread to meet a friend of mine, Joseph, and ran into Matthew. He told me that his grandmother had just died. We sympathized over coffee and lemonade, he drinking the former and me taking the latter.
    Before he left, I told him he could call me if he needed to talk. I had, after all, gone through the same thing recently. He hugged me for a minute, then we both went our separate ways.
    And as I drove off, it was official. I liked him.
    So yada yada yada, we hung out with friends about once a week...then yada yada yada, we started hanging out one-on-one more often...I liked him more and more...
    My parents asked me if I was interested in Matt after we'd had lunch together one day and I finally told them. Then I told Melissa right before she visited that summer. Erica was the next to find out, then Zeke, then Laura-Rose.
    "I noticed that he always called you when he wasn't sure where we were all meeting," she told me.
    Everyone told me to go ahead and tell him. To say I was scared, though, was a gross understatement. If he didn't feel anything back, it would royally screw things up in my group of friends.
    On February 5th, 2008, I got the nerve to tell him. It was an immensely awkward moment and I was so scared that I remember shaking slightly, but I saw him smile and he said he'd been thinking basically the same thing. Our first official date was on Valentine's Day and yup...that pretty much brings us up to the present.
    He's one in a million...and one of my best friends.

    I finally heard from Ninja Matt (the boyfriend) today. I hadn't talked to him in almost a week. I tried not to make anything of it, because part of the reason he's a ninja is that occasionally, he kind of falls off the face of the earth. He just disappears. But still, I had kind of gotten worried.
    Anyway, his phone battery had died and he didn't know it. So that's why.
    We had lunch together, then went to the CSM meeting, then went to Seekers, where we watched YouTube until Laura S. and Amy J. arrived. After that, we went to his friends Billy and Josie's place, where he and Bill proceeded to kick my arsh0nezz at Halo. I don't have Xbox or a PC that can handle Halo, so I have no chance to improve my Haloing skills between arshwhupping sessions. Then again, those d00dz are pros, so every time I got ready to pwn, they put the hurt on me. I got a high score of 5. Woo to the freakin' hoo.
    Between going to the CSM hooha and Seekers, I received a parking ticket. As Laura Squared would say, FLIBBERDESCABBLE. Or as I would say, OH CRAP. Actually, I'm not going to repeat what I said in reality. I plan to contest it, though, because it's BS. The ticket says I was #1, parking in visitor parking and #2, didn't have the student tag on my rear view mirror. Hello, retards! That's why I parked in visitor parking. You cannot park in student parking without the tag on your mirror, and you cannot park in visitor parking with the tag on your mirror. So it's bogus, and they can bite my Halo-whupped arsh0nezz.
    On the way home from Billy and Josie's, I took a detour to pick up some prints at Wal-Green's, and it took me by the new Family Video rental place. Out front was this sign.