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Friday!
     FISH went to the Coffee Beanery, then Putt-Putt. I made a fool out of myself, crying because of a friend that's struggling with bipolar disorder. I couldn't take it anymore. I hadn't told anyone, or if I had, I hadn't told them how serious it was. But it just overflowed and I couldn't be the strong one anymore.

    I have a very tender heart and when people around me hurt, I channel their pain. If you've ever heard the song "Scars" by Papa Roach, that's exactly how I feel sometimes. Especially the times that I've tried to be there for people that didn't want me to be there for them for whatever reason.
    "You're drowning in the water and I offered you my hand, I left my heart open but you didn't understand..." "And my weakness is that I care too much..."
    Anyway, it's funny how whenever a friend cries around me, I don't think any less of them and I'm like, "It's fine, you needed to do that." I am not much of a crier but the few times I've done that around other people I've felt humiliated.
    Otherwise, the night was fun. I got a neon green plastic samurai sword with tickets at Putt-Putt. ^_^ It's the little things...     I went to Fort Worth with Erica to take pictures at the butterfly exhibit they were having at the botanical gardens. They had over 10,000 butterflies there. Awesome, awesome stuff. Really humid, but awesome.
    Butterflies are pretty dang hard to photograph, but I did get a few nice shots. This one is my favorite.
A little girl was checking out a Blue Morpho. As they say on Cute Overload, C.O.X.C.U.! (Close-up)
Is that not the most beautiful shade of blue you've ever seen? I had to set my camera mode to "Sports" (action mode, takes a series of photographs in a matter of seconds) to capture this, because this butterfly doesn't flutter its wings a whole lot after landing.
    This one is an Atlas Moth, which is enormous. The wingspan must have been about a foot long.
     Laugh if you will, but if this monster came after me, I'd scream bloody murder. Just look closer at the body...
     The antennae are kinda cool - they look like feathers - and the colors may be kinda pretty, but still...bugs frighten me and if this thing were fluttering around the porch light, I would run away into the night, finally collapsing in an exhausted heap somewhere in Palo Pinto county, where I would fall into a greatly pained slumber, filled with nightmares concerning this monstrous moth. It is incredible, yet terrifying.
    We also took some time to have some fun with the statues outside. Laura-Rose called me and really needed someone to talk to, so Erica and I also took turns consoling her.
Sunday!
    Matt came to church with me, then we went to Billy and Josie's place, where Matt and Billy schooled me on Halo some more. I still suck, but not as much as I did.
    It's a small world.
    During lunchtime, I sat in the Student Center cafeteria, with my laptop. A girl asked if I'd mind her sitting at the same table so she could plug in her laptop as well. She said her name was Emily. We started talking as we each surfed the Web. Then eventually, Laura showed up.
    "I didn't know you two knew each other!"
    Turns out that Emily and Laura are in the same class. Emily even had some notes lying on the table that Laura had written for her.
    Anyway, I made a new friend and realized what a small world it was.